Category Archives: Love

Wake UP!

In which I buy some clothes.

It’s 2:25 PM, and I’m sitting in front of the computer in my office. Brett’s asleep naked in the day bed.

“Wake up! Wake up!” I call. “Let’s go to Ottumwa and eat, and go to Target and buy me some clothes.”

Downtown Ottumwa, IA
Downtown Ottumwa, Iowa

He said, “Mm hmm,” and rolled over.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I’ve already taken a nap today myself. But this is ridiculous. “Wake up!” I repeat.

“Mm-hmm,” he answers again. He’s still lying on his stomach, one pale leg sticking out from under the sheet. You would not believe the whiteness of his ankles, which never see the sun. Milk-white, fish-flesh pale. He’s such a redhead.

“GET UP!” I yell.

He rolls over again. “Time is it?” he asks.

“It’s two-thirty.”

“Oh, yeah,” he says, apparently pleased with the amount of nothing he’s accomplished so far today.

Then he sits up, groggy and unfocused. “Did you shower?” he asks. I nod. “Do I get that opportunity?”

“I think so, if you go now. No lines, no waiting, if you hurry!”

He’s threatening to buy me an iPod nano for my birthday, which I want because it’s cute as fuck but don’t really need because it’s got no more storage space than the 4Gb mini I already have. I also want a cheap acoustic guitar because all I have is a fat-necked classical that I never play. Either way, I’m buying some cheap Target boho clothes because all my clothes suck.

My man's home early

In which Brett returns a whole day early and I reveal to him that I have a boyfriend named Manhattan.

Brett rolled in around midnight last night, woke me up and ravished me. Then we stayed up ’til three in the morning having A Big Talk about our trips and our life together. It’s so nice when we do something and actually have something to talk about; we can go months sometimes without having a real conversation because we’re together all the time and already know what’s going on with each other.

He said the Telluride Blues ‘n’ Brews fest was awesome, and he told me about all the acts and caught me up on all the gossip about the Colorado contingent: car accidents, divorces, jobs, personality quirks, etc. I told him all about the fabulousness of my New York trip in great and vivid detail.

The Big Talk part of all that gossiping was about our marriage and our life together. Neither of us are very happy, to be honest.

I woke up at 8:30 this morning and didn’t have time to shower before work. So I’m not having the best hair day, and I’m really tired.

That redheaded man is an awesome snuggler, though.

Cocktails and Studio Work

Last night after I blogged, Steven, JoLynn, Aimee and I walked down to The View and had a couple of cocktails. The View’s a (gay) bar and not a club, so we sat on couches and watched music videos and were nearly able to talk. (Until the drag queen puppet bingo started, then we decided to leave.)

You can’t smoke and drink at the same time here, you have to go outside to smoke. One point for Iowa: you can still smoke in the bars. (Score: New York 120, Iowa 1.) (Hah.)

Then we came back to the apartment and crashed out.

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Eight hours later, the alarm went off and we were off and running again.

We hit the corner Starbucks for lattes and muffins, then took a cab over to Live Wire (Cyndi Lauper’s studio, I gather) and recorded four songs in ten hours.

Studio 2

I don’t really love studio work. It’s intellectual, picky, detail-oriented, and if you’ve never done it, it’s hard work. Especially in a choir; we were working three or four people on a mic in a live-in-the-studio scenario, so if one person or section fucked up, we’d have to re-do the whole section. No punch-ins.

Booth

You’ll be happy to hear that I nailed my solo in one take. It took three hours for the group to record the chart, but fewer than five minutes – including mic setup time – for me to record my solo. One take! You may enjoy a moment of silence in worship of me. (Snort!)

We broke around 7:30 for dinner. Steven and I ate at Taco Bell across the street from Live Wire; every one else ate at Brick Oven Pizza up the street. Then we went back and did one more chart. Punch-ins were nearly impossible because we were tired and dropping in pitch so badly we couldn’t cut and paste from one take to another.

The engineer, Chris Agosto, was wonderful. Patient and professional and friendly, and he laughed at all my jokes (including the time when I mumbled, “Damn vocalists… we’re all so stupid and chatty.”). I really thought he was amazing.

Finally we re-recorded the entire chart and were in the booth listening to playback. Amazingly, the end section of the keeper take, which was bad and needed to be fixed, was able to be replaced by the end of the final take – they were in the same key. We’d dropped exactly the same amount in two takes recorded over an hour apart! Believe me when I tell you this is damn near impossible.

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On the subway ride home, we sang the end of Sweet True Love. New Yorkers are so fabulous, they absolutely did not give a fucking shit. I was wailing my solo, six other singers were singing the comp, the train car was full, and no one Gave. A. Shit.

I love this city.

We all kissed and hugged when Lindsey got off to connect with the A train, and then again when Steven and Aimee and I got off at our stop, and now I may never see some of those people again.

Now I’m sitting at the kitchen table, people are chatting around me, and I’m done typing today’s entry on JoLynn’s laptop. I believe I’ll go have a wine cooler. Ciao, babies!
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Friday is my favorite day

Today, for the touristy portion of our time, we (Steven, Aimee, Greg and I) ate at the Blue Moon diner, visited JoLynn’s store (Tokens, in Hell’s Kitchen), and briefly wandered Times Square, which is such a sensory overload that it’s amost like not doing anything at all.

There’s a point at which too much becomes totally Zen and Times Square achieves that. (In spades.) Steven hates it. If I lived here, I’d never go over there either. But as a tourist, I thought it was, well, touristy as fuck. So much crazy shit to look at!

After that we went back to Patti’s and rehearsed again.

Aimee and me and Greg on the train
Aimee, me, and Greg on the train to rehearsal

I really like Patti, she’s dry as hell and she cracks me up. (Plus she curses as much as I do, which I like in a girl.) She gave me a lecture for drinking out of her collector’s restaurant glass with Tweety Bird on it, replaced it with a paper cup, and then showed me her rather extensive collection of kitchy collector’s restaurant glasses. (Remember those 16 oz. glasses you could get from McDonald’s or something in the late seventies, the ones with all the Warner Bros. characters stencilled on them? She has a full set.) Rehearsal went well overall. I still think the group’s a little large, but it’s not my project.

Rehearsal
Barbara, Steven, and Maggie Roche, at Patti’s
(sorry for the lack of flash and resolution, this is a camera phone pic)

After rehearsal was over, we waddled over to Amsterdam and ate dinner at Monsoon. Greg hooked up with an old friend of his, John, who came to meet us there, and Karen’s man Larry came too. John and Aimee knew Katy Garnier in common, so John called her and she showed up too. Dinner conversation was animated and stimulating and funny, and the food was great. Particularly the asparagus/avocado roll appetizers with the peanut dipping sauce and wasabi.

John paid the tab for all nine of us (or rather Time-Warner picked up the tab), bless his heart, and then we went outside and sang three of the a capella charts on the street corner. By the time we were done singing we had a crowd of about twenty, all wanting to know who we were and what we were doing and where they could see us. We did Sweet True Love and I wailed my solo right there on the street; it was fun hearing my voice bounce back from the buildings over the traffic. (I’m SO loud when I want to be.) John came over to me afterward and put his hand on my shoulder and gazed at me. I said, “You like me now, don’t you.”

He gave me a sardonic grin. “I like you very much now. You wail like a black girl.”

Sometimes I love being me. People meet me, think I’m funny, dismiss me. Then they hear me sing and give me this look. It’s so satisfying.

After much standing around and chatting, Steven and Aimee and I caught a cab back to Steven’s because he had to make a phone call at 10:30 and his cell phone had died.

Now I’m sitting on the futon chatting with Aimee, waiting for Steven to take me out for a damn cocktail. I am so craving a cocktail.

Tomorrow, we have to be at Live Wire (the studio Barbara’s using) at eleven to record. I intend to get up early and warm the hell up; I very much doubt my voice will be particularly supple at eleven in the morning since I don’t even really wake up until about 9 o’clock at night. Four singers on a mic; it’ll be a totally different recording reality.

I’m still madly in love with New York. I love the vibe. I love the people. I love the insane pace. I love the whole fucking thing. Nobody gives a shit; it’s wonderful and crowded and dirty and I don’t want to leave.

Right now I’m using JoLynn’s laptop on their balcony in their adorable expensive Chelsea apartment, and three dudes are about to have a fist fight on the sidewalk below. It’s warm and humid as hell and loud as fuck and bright as day at eleven o’clock at night, and I love it here.
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I love New York, damn it

I didn’t expect to love New York.

I thought it would be like a bigger, dirtier, shittier Chicago. I expected to hate it. But it’s not and I don’t: I fucking love it here. (Manhattan, at least.) If I didn’t have a husband, a mortgage, and two dogs, I’d move here next month. For real. Debbie even said she could get me a job.

It’s muggy as fuck, though. I don’t really like muggy. But I love this city.

Please. Is there anything more utterly fucking cliched than loving New York?

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Today we lazed around until past one in the afternoon, then took a cab and went out for lunch at some adequate but mediocre Mexican restaurant. (“There is no good Mexican food in New York,” Steven explained. “You eat Italian here, but the Mexican food just doesn’t work.”) We went to Service Station, where Aimee got her hair colored and cut – it looks fabulous – by the most adorable blond gay boy I’ve ever seen. (He verged on too perfect to be human, really.) While she was doing that, Steven took me a few blocks to a nice little bar and we had a couple of cocktails and talked about boys for a couple hours.

When Aimee’s hair was done, we met up with Greg at a nearby deli – he’d come in on the subway from the Newark airport – and we all went to Patti’s place on Central Park West. (Yes, I rehearsed at Patti Smythe & John McEnroe’s house, er, apartment. Consider that my name-dropping for the day.) The whole acapella group was there, and some of the sections of the songs were muddy as hell… but some of them really popped and sounded tight. It will be interesting to hear how this recording turns out.

After rehearsal, Aimee, Steven, Greg, Barbara and I went out for Indian food and had a lovely meal with great conversation.

Indian food
Barbara, Greg, and Steven

At one point during the meal, I was looking out the window and made eye contact with a guy dressed up like Captain Cooke (or Captain Morgan, who knows) and he came to the door of the restaurant and kind of waved at our table. He then hung out outside the restaurant for awhile with two chicks dressed in fishnet stockings, but they’d all disappeared by the time we left.

We then picked Greg’s luggage up from Patti’s building and went down into the subway. (Fuck but it’s hot down there.) Since we had awhile to wait for the train, we found a little niche mosiaced with an underwater ocean theme and rehearsed some more; it was much, much tighter with fewer people. The accoustic was nice down there. When there weren’t any trains going by, that is.

Singing in the subway
Barbara, Ronnie, and Steven

Now we’re back at Steven and JoLynn’s, and have been singing and talking and drinking beers on the balcony. Since Greg’s here, I might end up sleeping with Steven and giving Greg the futon, since Aimee’s already sleeping in the kitchen on all the extra blankets. It’s pretty full in this tiny little apartment, but fun, and our host and hostess are amazingly gracious.

I’m having so much fun I can barely stand myself.

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Misty called me today. When I saw her number on my cell, I figured my dog was dead or missing or something, but when I listened to the message she was just calling to say that they’re in love with Shiva and that he’s doing great and they’re letting him sleep in the damn bed with them.

Well, she also mentioned that he’d moped the first 24 hours, but apparently he’s now forgotten about me and is worming his way into their hearts rapidly.

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I just fixed the comments function here on the blog, so you can tell me how much you love me again. Sorry about that.

I’m pretty certain that I’ve lost the entire rest of my web site. I think all I’ve got now is this here blog, and that I’ll be starting from scratch with Rants and the gallery and the home page. Ugh.

Lesson in non-attachment, I guess.
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Big Apple

I’m in New York! Hah!

I left work early yesterday at three, picked Aimee up, and we ran some errands. Then we drove to Des Moines, checked into the Holiday Inn across the street from the airport, went out for mediocre pizza, went back to the room, talk-talk-talk, passed out. We woke up at 4:45 this morning for a 5:30 shuttle to the United Gate for our 6:30 flight to Chicago.

Brett called me at 5:20 and was shocked that I was awake already; he wanted to know where the sleeping bags were. Pretty funny, considering he’d cleverly packed the night before and spent the night in town at Bo’s to get an early start, then had to drive back out to the farm to get sleeping bags, poor guy.

Anyway. Airport security let me bring my knitting needles on board, but they took my Bic lighter. “I want to know how exactly they expect me to hijack a plane with a fucking ligher. Macguyver could do it, but I certainly don’t know how!” I told Aimee. She laughed.

They left me FIVE SHARP BAMBOO KNITTING NEEDLES, and took my lighter! Go fucking figure.

We had an hour-and-change layover in Chi-town. We ate breakfast at Chilis (their potatoes were awesome) and caught our next flight to Newark.

Steven & Aimee
Steven & Aimee in the sky train from Newark

Steven met us at the airport and we took a lightrail and a train to Penn Station. He lives a few blocks from it. His apartment is tiny and cute and has an adorable little balcony. We left our luggage here and went out for Italian food (he and I had glasses of house red wine with our pasta, yum). Then we took the subway to Central Park, where we met up with a fairly large group of people and rehearsed for a few hours. The group was really fun. I ran my solo twice and pretty much sucked both times, but I’ll have it ready by the weekend when we record.

I’d called Debbie from the restaurant, and she called me back during rehearsal. Eventually it was decided she’d meet us at Steven’s, and we three came back here. Debbie found us on the street outside the little store around the corner we’d stopped at to get beer and wine coolers and juice and water and I promptly hugged the shit out of her.

She and I sat on Steven’s balcony and raged for a few hours, covering our marriages, careers, fertility issues, blah blah blah et al. My God but I love that woman. (Debbie is my only friend remaining from high school. She’s an amazing human being. She’s beautiful, smart, deep, sensitive, strong, and fabulous on so many levels, you just couldn’t possibly believe it.)

After awhile the other three joined us, and we just talked and drank and smoked and talked. Debbie finally left a little past eleven because she has to work tomorrow.

And then it rained like hell for awhile and cooled off somewhat while Steven and his roommate and Aimee and I sat on the balcony some more.

Steven’s roommate is adorable. I brought my Amma doll with me, and when I handed her the doll she promptly burst into tears. She knows of Amma, even though she’s never had darshan, and the whole episode was sweet as hell.

Aimee’s decided she has to sleep on the floor in the kitchen, so I get the futon in the living room to myself. I think I’m going to go check it out. It’s twelve-thirty, and I’ve been up since five.

I shit you not

Forty-five minutes ago, at eleven-thirty in the morning, I went downstairs to suggest to Mr. Brett that we go to Paul’s Discount in Iowa City and buy him some clothes, and then maybe go eat something or see a movie.

I had to wake him up from his position on the couch in front of the boob tube to suggest this.

He promptly asked me to scratch his back. Which I did, because I am fond of him in spite of himself, but he went back to sleep.

This is a true story.

Now it’s twenty after twelve and I’m wondering if I should try to wake him up again to do something today, or if I should just blow it off and start with the daquiris.

Bitching about housework

It’s rainy and overcast. I’ve been washing throw rugs, sweeping and dusting, tidying. I also de-cobwebbed, which is something of a gross job but important when you live in an old house in the country. Spiders fled my cleaning wrath. I found a toad under the coffee table and carried her outside.

There is no end to the sweeping and laundry that needs to be done around here.

I’ve eaten bread and brie, potato chips, and hot cocoa today. Lousy diet. Now that it’s noon, I might start on the daquiris again. *smirk*

Sometimes I feel like all I do is take care of Brett. Since he started with Schauss-Voorhies, he leaves early and gets home late, and I spend a lot of time alone in the house doing things for him. Making beds, cleaning, cooking dead animals. When he gets home, he wants me to bring him his dinner and scratch his back and ravish him. In that order. He seems to think I’m household staff and not his life partner.

Last night I was a total bitch to him. He got home around seven, which means he’d been gone thirteen and a half hours but had only worked for seven, and immediately he stripped to his boxers (leaving his filthy clothes on the floor in a room I’d just cleaned) and asked me to sit on the couch with him and cuddle him and scratch his back.

I said, “I don’t want to scratch your back.” I thought, Doesn’t it occur to you, ever, to offer me some TLC? You know, catch more flies with honey and all that?

He started whining about how I never this for him and I never that for him, and what a poor victim he is that I don’t live to scratch his fucking back after he’s spent a hard three hours drinking beer at the bar.

I said, “Fuck you, dude. Seriously. All I ever do is wait on you.” And then I went into the kitchen and finished preparing his dinner of steak and mushrooms with wild rice pilaf. Elsewhere about the house there were clean clothes for him to wear, a gallon of iced tea in the fridge, and a living room that was clean and tidy. Where in the holy hell did he get off thinking I wanted to give him a massage, too? Yes, I know he’s been working hard lately, but no one gets away with the shit he gets away with.

God, it’s like I married into motherhood. (The fact that he was willing to marry me at all should have tipped me off.)

Marriage is so much better for men than it is for women. All Brett has to do is breathe and bring home a paycheck. If it weren’t for the fact that he lets me work part-time and ends up effectively paying me to wait on him, I’d hold his head under water until he quit being so annoying.

If only running a household was satisfying on any level. It’s boring, repetative, and endless. I’m thinking about going back to work full-time and just letting the place go to hell. It’s not like we throw dinner parties or anything anyway. I could tell him he has to do his own laundry, his own shopping, and his own cooking. I could simply live in my office on microwaved TV dinners and salad, and ignore the whole rest of the house.

The man would literally die of shock! Snort!

Oh the vinyl I used to have

HealingI keep buying music I used to have (or trying to buy music I used to have only to discover it’s out of print or so obscure it’s never even made it to CD – but that’s another post) and feeding it t0 my iPod.

This album, Healing, I bought originally in high school. I used to live with my dad in Gresham, Oregon, and there was this room built inside his two-car garage out of 2x4s and plywood. That was my room. No windows. Dark as a tomb. I let my friends put graffiti on the walls with my extensive permanent marker collection. When I put an album on the stereo and turned out the lights, it was like being in one of those sensory deprivation tanks they have in Altered States. (Remember that movie? I fucking love that movie.)

The B side of this album (Healing I, II, and III) was really fun to listen to in the absolute darkness of my teenaged sanctuary. It’s like a guided meditation. I usually fell asleep listening to it. It’s really cool.

Mostly I re-purchased this album, though, for the track Shine. I love this track and decided yesterday I absolutely had to hear it. (Thank God for Amazon and 1-day shipping!) It’s your typical weird Todd track: exuberant, strangely engineered, wild, electronic, sweeping genius.

I like something positive once in awhile, too, and even though this track is a little more New Age-y than I’d typically like, it’s still an amazing and uplifiting performance. And the vocal during the outro is typical inspired Todd insanity.

Yes, I realize no one else will like it except other Todd-heads, and this matters to me not at all. Do leave your opinon in the comments, if you bother to listen to it.

Now, please excuse me while I go make a strawberry daquiri in my blender.

Meme. Sort of.

There was a meme going around in which you’d post ten MP3s that you were listening to a lot lately, regardless of genre. I was going to do it… two weeks ago.

List ten songs that you are currently digging … it doesn’t matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they’re no good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the ten songs in your blog. Then tag five other people to see what they’re listening to.

Here’s what I came up with tonight. In no particular order. This is just some what I’ve been spinnin’ lately. I’m not going to tag anyone ’cause I wasn’t tagged myself.

  • Wait Til You See Him (De-Phazz Remix)
    Ella Fitzgerald
    Verve Remixed
    JAZZ/AMBIENT – This track is just plain gorgeous. And the remix is lush, just like I like it.
  • Northstar Robert Fripp feat. Daryl Hall Exposure
    ROCK – This track is off of Robert Fripp’s obscure and weird solo (i.e., non-King Crimson) album Exposure, which I used to own on vinyl. I love this chart for Fripp’s layered, textured guitar tracks and Hall’s killer vocal. Kinda reminds me of Abbey Road.
  • I Can’t Give You Anything But LoveElla Fitzgerald At Newport
    JAZZ/SWING – Ella impersonates Pops. This is a stunning virtuoso jazz voice performance by a superlative artist at the absolute very very tip-top of her form. Plus it’s funny.
  • Skylark George Benson & the Basie Band Big Boss Band
    BIG BAND/SWING – I love Skylark – it’s one of my favorite real book charts ever – and I love this rendition particularly because the horn arrangements are so incredibly lush. And the swing is so wide you could drive a truck through it.
  • Still In Love Ben Folds feat. William Shatner Fear of Pop: Vol. 1
    POP – This song is for men everywhere who are sick of being shredded to pieces by psycho bitches from hell. It should be the masculinists’ anthem. Yes, Shatner’s on it, but he nails it.
  • Liar Todd Rundgren Liars
    ROCK – In which TRi tells leaders of both sides of the conflict (the ones who send young men off to die) to go fuck themselves with a rusty wire brush. (‘And you send them to their deaths / with your every lying breath’.)
  • Drawing Curtains Buck 65 Secret House Against the World
    RAP – This smooth, clever track is just plain sexy-dirty. I love it. Plus the French accent, OMG.
  • You’re Still a Young Man Tower of Power Live and in Living Color
    JAZZ FUSION – Tower at its peak. Hot, hot, hot. Listen to those lip-splitting lead trumpet lines! This band swings like a BIG dog.
  • Pass The Peas Prince feat. Maceo Parker Live at the Aladdin Las Vegas
    JAZZ FUNK – This track is off of the Live At The Aladdin Las Vegas DVD. This groove is so deep in the pocket it’s got lint up its nose. Go buy this DVD, I’m so serious.
  • Next Lifetime Erykah Badu Baduizm
    R&B – I saw her perform this chart as a guest on Chappelle Show and had to have this album because I was intrigued by the depth of groove achieved with such restraint. Oh, and plus: her hair. It fascinates me.

I’ll upload and link to the actual MP3s tomorrow so you can check them out. I’ll also link to the albums so you can buy them. You should be able to play these files in iTunes or Winamp. If you have problems, change the extension from m4a to mp4.

(I just noticed that Skylark and You’re Still A Young Man are encoded. Also, I can’t find In Love on my external hard drive. I’ll add those links tomorrow.)