In which there’s The Dread, aka my anxiety disorder.
Had anxiety pretty bad yesterday, and during the night.
Pretty anxious today, too.
I know I’ve said this before, but the problem with anxiety and panic is this:
Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not out to get you.
In the same way, being deeply terrified that Something Is Wrong with your body and that you’re About To Die does not necessarily mean nothing’s wrong with your body or that you’re not about to die. THere is no law that says you can’t die — from other causes — while having a panic attack.
Which is why it’s so hard to tell yourself that you’re “just” having an attack.